I wanted to be contained. I knew deep inside me I would be destroyed eventually. The Darkness would only need me for so long. When it didn't, I'd be gone. Forever. I didn't need to get my friends killed too.
I pounded a fist on the wall as I turned to pace to the opposite one. There had to be something I could do! I wasn't just doomed to die, was I?
I flinched as the metal door grated open. I whirled around to face Braxyd. Long time no see, I thought.
"What are you doing in here!?" He demanded. "What happened!?"
"Nothing, just.... just go away!" I turned to face the white wall instead. It didn't have eyes that burned with hellfire.
He ranted on, about what I could care less. "...we got to get you out of here!"
I snapped. "No!" I yelled at him. Simply raising my voice in anger let the Darkness surface. I began breathing deeply, trying vainly to sink it again.
"I want to be in here!" I said, trying to remain calm, with no avail. "I need to be!"
"Max..." I could tell he was trying just as hard as me. "Is this something Nexan told you?"
"No!" I growled, angry that he didn't think I could think for myself. "This was my idea!"
He lapsed into silence, staring fearfully at me. I twitched, remembering the look from before. I rubbed at my eyes, trying to remove the black.
"Just, go!" I choked, my hands flickering painfully with eager power, tugging at me to use it.
The door closed with a metallic clang. I turned, the only sound left in the room was my heavy breathing. Talk about isolation, I thought.
No one would come near me. Not with me being the beast that I was.
It was both comforting and sad. I had finally accepted what I was. No more illusions of sanity to maintain. I sat in the corner and buried my head in my knees. At this point, I was ready to accept that I was not human.
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